change.

i never really talked about my word of the year in depth. i mentioned how there will be a lot of change this year, but i didn't talk about why i picked that word or about the change that i want to create.

life isn't just about the change that happens to us, it's about the change that we create.

i will create change this year.

i will use change this year.

i will accept change this year.

there are many things that will involve change that i will have no control over. those are the things i will have to accept. and more than just accept the change, i have to use it. it's one thing to say "okay, things are changing, i need to be okay with it. i am okay with it." it's another thing to say "what am i going to do with this change?"

there are also many things that i can change. things i want to change. things i should change. i need the motivation and courage to change these things.

i want to change the way i eat. honestly, i am a very healthy person. i easily turn down junk food or anything that isn't good for you. and by good for you i mean beneficial to your body. in my mind, there's food that is outright damaging to your body, there's food that does nothing for you, then there's food that is good for you. i don't eat meat mostly because i don't like it and it makes me sick, but also for other economical/ethical/political/social reasons. but my weakness is dessert. i love a good cookie and given the chance i'd have one every night. isn't dessert supposed to be a treat? i need to not buy or make cookies. i need to find something small and organic and healthy to indulge in treats every now and then.

i need to change many other things that might get boring if i list them all out on the blog.

but the point is, that change doesn't just happen, change is created. i will make, accept and use change this year. i'm ready.